In the interest of full disclosure and because I don't like the idea of you being angry with me for nothing:
I care about Scar. It started because of what he did for you - for us - in the underground. He saved us both. That is what I believe. And when you died here, it was Scar, Utena, and Jim Standfast who brought me back. Jim and Utena came out into the ruins and brought me home, but Scar tried to save me. What he said to me then helped me to be strong enough to keep on living without you. And a few months later, I was severely injured by a creature in the ruins. I was close to death but I did not die and at first that made me angry. I was angry that I had survived an attack so much like the one that had killed you. But Dawn visited me. That was when she gave me the butterfly in the jar and reminded me that I still had things to do, still had people to care for. And Scar came to see me with that necklace. I'm sure you've seen me wear it. And his visit and his thoughtfulness was a reminder that there were still people who cared about me. That I wasn't alone.
And now Utena is gone and Dawn has disappeared. You and Scar are two of the most important people to me left in this city. If you need me to reaffirm everything I have lived my life for thus far, my ultimate loyalty lies with you. If I had to make a choice between the two of you, it would always be you. That is not for your ego or to make any apologies for anything I have said. It's the truth.
Beyond that, I don't know what I can tell you that I haven't already said. What I feel for you is difficult to understand. It is hard for me to separate it out of everything else we've been to each other in our lives. I love you. More than that I can't say. And though I can't speak for how you feel, I don't want to keep getting into pointless arguments with you that really boil down to the fact that we have not made a choice to remain what we are or to try to become something more.
And if there is something specific that you don't understand about the way I have been acting, please say so and I will do my best to explain. I don't want to fight with you anymore.
[TEXT - secure like fort knox] a few hours after their argument on Scar's post
I care about Scar. It started because of what he did for you - for us - in the underground. He saved us both. That is what I believe. And when you died here, it was Scar, Utena, and Jim Standfast who brought me back. Jim and Utena came out into the ruins and brought me home, but Scar tried to save me. What he said to me then helped me to be strong enough to keep on living without you. And a few months later, I was severely injured by a creature in the ruins. I was close to death but I did not die and at first that made me angry. I was angry that I had survived an attack so much like the one that had killed you. But Dawn visited me. That was when she gave me the butterfly in the jar and reminded me that I still had things to do, still had people to care for. And Scar came to see me with that necklace. I'm sure you've seen me wear it. And his visit and his thoughtfulness was a reminder that there were still people who cared about me. That I wasn't alone.
And now Utena is gone and Dawn has disappeared. You and Scar are two of the most important people to me left in this city. If you need me to reaffirm everything I have lived my life for thus far, my ultimate loyalty lies with you. If I had to make a choice between the two of you, it would always be you. That is not for your ego or to make any apologies for anything I have said. It's the truth.
Beyond that, I don't know what I can tell you that I haven't already said. What I feel for you is difficult to understand. It is hard for me to separate it out of everything else we've been to each other in our lives. I love you. More than that I can't say. And though I can't speak for how you feel, I don't want to keep getting into pointless arguments with you that really boil down to the fact that we have not made a choice to remain what we are or to try to become something more.
And if there is something specific that you don't understand about the way I have been acting, please say so and I will do my best to explain. I don't want to fight with you anymore.