[A pause. She's been working herself up to leaving this message all afternoon and she suddenly thinks maybe she's not ready even now. But it's too late to turn back because she's already begun.]
I'm sorry. For everything I put you through for the last few days. I don't know what happened to me. It may have been an effect of the Mist or something of that sort. But there is no excuse for what I've done to you.
[A breath. And sadly, that was the easy part. There is a moment of quiet before she manages to continue.]
I don't feel anything for Sebastian. I don't think I ever really did, but I thought I did. I was convinced of it at the time, but I know now that it wasn't real.
[And if she was speaking with anyone but Roy Mustang her voice there might have shown how much it angered her to have her feelings - her life - manipulated, how upset she was with herself that she hadn't been able to tell it was happening. But she has no grounds for any of that with him, who was hurt by her fault. So instead there is only contrition and a level tone.]
I did kiss him. It's only fair that you should know that before you make any judgments. But nothing else happened between us. And you should also know... that it would have been you. I would have chosen you over him, even if those feelings hadn't gone away. It will always be you. I think maybe... it always has been.
But I'll understand if you want nothing more to do with me in that regard. I do hope you will continue to allow me to be your bodyguard, whatever you may decide. It may be asking a lot, and maybe its selfish, but if nothing else please let me be sure that you are safe.
[v-v-voice | super private!] backdated to the evening after the event ended :D
[A pause. She's been working herself up to leaving this message all afternoon and she suddenly thinks maybe she's not ready even now. But it's too late to turn back because she's already begun.]
I'm sorry. For everything I put you through for the last few days. I don't know what happened to me. It may have been an effect of the Mist or something of that sort. But there is no excuse for what I've done to you.
[A breath. And sadly, that was the easy part. There is a moment of quiet before she manages to continue.]
I don't feel anything for Sebastian. I don't think I ever really did, but I thought I did. I was convinced of it at the time, but I know now that it wasn't real.
[And if she was speaking with anyone but Roy Mustang her voice there might have shown how much it angered her to have her feelings - her life - manipulated, how upset she was with herself that she hadn't been able to tell it was happening. But she has no grounds for any of that with him, who was hurt by her fault. So instead there is only contrition and a level tone.]
I did kiss him. It's only fair that you should know that before you make any judgments. But nothing else happened between us. And you should also know... that it would have been you. I would have chosen you over him, even if those feelings hadn't gone away. It will always be you. I think maybe... it always has been.
But I'll understand if you want nothing more to do with me in that regard. I do hope you will continue to allow me to be your bodyguard, whatever you may decide. It may be asking a lot, and maybe its selfish, but if nothing else please let me be sure that you are safe.